I FXCKING HATE MYSELF FOR THE SITUATION RIGHT NOW.
I HATE MYSELF. I HATE MYSELF. IM A ******. IM AN EFFING ******
I REALLY AM. IF ITS NOT BCAUSE OF ME, THIS WOULDNT HAPPEN.
I almost got someone back. Till Botak came back. Then someone asked me to go back with him. Its complicated. I know, this is not Love. Its all about trust and honesty right now.
I just dont know what to effing do. I'll drown myself with tears tonight.