Last night, idk what happened. I felt like crying so bad, and so i did, to sleep. Everything is way complicated now. Veryvery, i dont want it to end there. Please. Fahmi, just forget about it what i said okay? Love you. I dont wish to loose anybody meaningful right now. I dont. And i really dont want to see anybody get hurt now, because of me. And myb, one day, we'll realise that all these fights are really good enough for us to relate to ourselves. Myb now, we dont know what we're thinkning, but one day it will all come about and we'll finally notice our mistakes.Something happened in the morning just now. Mum and i had a talk. I cried, so badly. I got to know things which are really dreadful. And ive just realised how much i cared too much about others. While they dont about me. And i just dont give a fuck about those who Do care about me. Even of I fail in what i do, or what ive done, im still Human, I still have feelings Who should i follow? I should think of others, not myself right now, even how hurt i am, to know the truth thats being kept all this while. Im trying not to hate you, you just dont seem to care about us right? What kind of _____ are you? Ive made my desicion, im not following you. I dont want to leave my mum and snake and matin. Only god knows how much pain i am in right now. Just cant stop crying in front of the laptop now, i hope everything will be fine.