Smirky faces.

He said the French life was like a photography lab.
Posted on: Monday, August 3, 6:47 PM

Dont even fucking bother to read this whole chunk.

Something spoiled my mood to 'eagerly' update my blog after school today, that is, after accompanying Dayana to Jurong Point with her Dad to buy her stuff for her birthday partay. Hush, cause i cant tell you what she bought for the people attending her birthday partayyy one day before the national day. Oh, and sorry i didnt get to go to Ikea with you babe. I had no mood and wanted to get home soon. Anywooots, ive been really moody and really lethargic these few days. Till this date, im still not in good terms with Mum. I need to call someone's mum soon or not, i might just loose my chance ): Thinking about 'ol things like these, just makes me so gloomy and so sad. And he's one of the reason why i had to cry to sleep on Sunday night.

On a brighter note, Sunday was a blast! Had a really really really great time with Asssri and Cikgu Ariff (who wore the same coloured Lacoste collared tee with my headband). And, not to forget, Ramlee, Sudin, Ajis, Saloma, Zaiton, and the Sofeassss. Kinda sad that Sunan had to go home. So Ans was still on meds. Haz too i think. But hack care, thanks for still being there! Met Haz and Ans under the void deck cause Haz wanted to pick us up. Proceeded to school and had to bring down the stuff. The regular stuff. Then came along Assri and Cikgu Ariff and the boys. Had our hair done and went out in our costume. Memalukan. Hah, who cares? And thanks Cikgu for the treat! Ans sorry my drink was the most expensive one on the reciept! Had to shift to the cabin and had our make-up done. Blah blah blah and we went to the Ayer Rajah thingy. Had oh so much fun backstage with Sudin, Zaiton and of course, abang Ramlee i! -.- And yes, i admit, the last part, i screwed up. My bad. So went back to school, changed and cleaned up and waited for Cikgu outside at the main gate. After that, all of us went to the void deck, and sat around. And so we all walked to my home and sent me home and then Anis, and then they boarded 99 and went home respectively. Thanks Alif esp cause he took one big round just to send everybody home. How sweet. And so, reached home at around 11 plus. Misery arrives.

So all of us sat together at recess just now and so sorry Dayana, Nurul, Han and Naz. Its only for one day! Anywoooooots, abang Ramlee i suapkan i mee dan kasi i minum milo. How sweeeeet. I feel so loved. Oh abang Ramlee, Saloma mintak maaf kerana adinda suap Ajis! Sudin and Zaiton jealous! Gi jalan dahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Kay whatever. And Luqh was so disgusting. Eew Eew. Shall sit together again soon! Maybe tmrw. And i hope all of us are going to Gendrum on the six. I no money leh.

Cikgu was mad today for malay period. I was pissed. Not because of Cikgu, because of something else, or rather someone else at school today. And i woke up late so that means i didnt get my hair blown dry this morn. I love youtube even more and more everyday. I love youtubing. I love watching vids. Now, the energizer batteries has turn into couch potatoes.

Ive never shared my problems now to anyone at school. So ive been keeping it all to myself. I feel like a small little feather boa with two huge loudhailers on the left and right. My life's so fragile right now. 4 more months, 2 more years. Dates dates, big days on these days. Someone once told me that he/she's been losing people in her/his life. And so do i. You people wont realise its just because i dont talk much now. Im not that bubbly as the past. Im not as crappy as the past. Cause im not me anymore. What makes me who i am if parts of myself's falling apart? And the one who really excepts me as who I really am is no longer here anymore. And hes the one ive shared all kinds of problems to. Hes the one who could give me advices. Hes the one whom i shared the same things with, the one i could simply talk to. Hes the one who taught me lots and lots of things from the very day ive known him. Hes the one that made my time with him seem so perfect. And now hes no longer here, ive got no one to share my problems to. And i dont really mean not to tell you what happened. Now im sending you to despair and im sorry if i had to let you think of what happened. I dont know why i should be saying all these and the reason for all these tears now, but i really do miss him. And i really do regretted not picking up his calls where i can talk to him nonstop about alot of things. And now, there's just no one here anymore. And i dont know the reasons why i suddenly went berserk every now and then.

Wrote a whole pile of shit and decided to erase it all off.

Step right up, step right up.

Its been a wonderful time, guessing of dates and feelings.

And chasing all the fucking goofy good time where we shared our feelings.

And also the times we had running around in circles aye.

Thank you all very very very much.

Heds,
who loves Fred so so so much.

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